I think I said this in my last update but wow, time passed by so quickly when you have a baby. I can’t believe my little ‘baby’ is now 10 months old. I look at photos of him as a newborn and it feels like yesterday.
A lot has happened since my last life update so I don't even know where to begin! We signed the lease and started renovations on our first ever physical Pilates studio, we moved house, and modelling and social media jobs have been super busy as well as all the admin and logistics of running Our Pilates. Life has been slightly chaotic if I’m being honest. It’s been a little stressful at times and a lot to juggle which I’m beginning to realise may be my new ‘normal’. While some days are super stressful I am feeling really happy and content at the moment. Billy has started sleeping through the night so I feel like I’ve finally caught up on sleep, we have so many exciting things coming to Our Pilates, we have been approved to begin our house build and so much more.
I have been in a good little routine the past few months which has been a nice change from those early months. It took me a really long time to get Billy into a sleeping and feeding routine so I found it stressful to have any time away from him especially as I am still breastfeeding. Now he is a little bit older, naps are a little bit more predictable and his meals are pretty set in stone, it’s so much easier for me to take a day away. I was feeling quite overwhelmed trying to get everything done with work while also having Billy 24/7. It has probably been one of the hardest parts of motherhood for me. Feeling like I am being pulled in so many directions and constantly letting someone or something down. Having a to-do list that is never-ending and going to sleep every night with only ticking off 2 out of the 20 things I needed to do was wearing me down. I started to feel a little bit disappointed in myself because I felt like I was only giving everything 20% and while Myles, my MIL and also my mum have been so helpful, we decided it was time for me to have some consistent help. We found a beautiful nanny to help me 1-2 days a week which has been the biggest blessing. Billy adores her and I love knowing he is happy when I’m not there. While I still haven’t found the perfect balance with being a working mum, I now feel like I have time to dedicate purely to work and once I get home I can completely show up for Billy.
If you follow along on my personal Instagram you would have seen me talk about my recovery from birth. It’s been a bit of a wild ride. Some weeks I feel like I’m getting back to my old self and then the following week I feel like I’ve taken 2 steps back. About a month ago I saw my Women’s Health Physio and we figured out what was happening so I’ve been working on my strength the past month and I can definitely notice a difference. I’ve been on my mat much more and I’m loving our postnatal program. I’m so excited to start in-person classes at our studio in a few weeks.
Han is expecting another little baby which I'm sure you guys have seen and our other 'baby', our studio is set to open mid-July. Our Pilates family is growing in so many ways and it is such an exciting time for all of us. None of this would be possible without you guys so from the bottom of my heart, thank you for all your support. Being able to help so many of you fall in love with moving your body and seeing the positive impact OP has had on so many people is the most rewarding job in the world.
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